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Rocking along with Kerry...never forgetting our towels...always watching out for piranha fish...
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
The Phillps Brothers Music featuring Kerry Wentworth
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Thoughts on Bullying - It Gets Better
I’M NOT EVEN SURE HOW OLD WE WERE… For those who grew up in Jasper and attended Jasper Elementary (Go Tigers!) in the 80’s, my reasoning behind placing it around 2nd grade is based purely on my remembering that it happened on the “Big Playground”. My 1st, 3rd, and 4th grade years were all spent on the “new playground” and the closed street that ran between the school and the (then) county library. I know I wasn’t in 5th grade, because other amazingly wonderful “kids will be kids” things happened that year.
The boys name was Allen McCharge. His name will forever be engrained into my head because of the few months he endured at our school, which must have been horrific, taught me a lesson that I still use today. I do remember that he wasn’t the nicest of kids, but it was probably because he had already been the butt of several jokes and bullying for much of his life up to that point. Even at that age, you can see the jading of society on kids who are “different” through their own attitudes and actions. I myself was struggling for being slightly “different”, even at that age, and trying to fit in. Allen was a lost cause the first day he came into the class room. He was larger than everyone, in height and girth, he had super curly red hair, and it was topped off with a pair of “coke bottle” glasses. He was also pretty far behind everyone school wise. I look back and wonder if he was learning disabled or just a late bloomer.
Something I always find interesting is how people, in general, who are lower on society’s totem pole tend to fight amongst themselves more than they fight the injustices of them being down there in the first place. It’s like they are trying to climb said pole by climbing over people, doing and saying things uncharacteristic to their personality for people who probably are unimpressed with anyone who they deem “under” them. It’s the common age old thought process of caring about what people think of you. If you can make someone else look bad, then, comparatively, you look better, right? As children, we do this instinctively. We see it in nature as well. My point is that it’s not society or the TV that train children to act this way when they are young, it’s nature. The main difference between animals and ourselves is that we get to a point in our growth where we grow a conscience. What we do with that conscience is what make the true difference. As a child, you know the clear right and wrongs, I feel, by natural instinct, but it’s the grey areas that kids find the hardest to understand. That is until the light finally comes on. When we decide for ourselves that it’s not OK to hit the kid next to you just because you feel like it. Self control? A conscience? Whatever it may be, I know the exact moment mine came. Not to say I didn’t have slip ups later in life (sorry Jen, for the last part of 5th grade! I love you and am so glad we grew up!), but I know that from this particular point in my life onward, I knew I wasn’t the only person in the world that mattered. I started watching what I said and did. I went through a section in life where I probably watched myself a little too closely because I cared a little too much about what other people thought, but I also tried my best to watch those around me who were in the same predicament.
So the totem pole… Let’s just say I was down near the bottom when I was younger. I too had red hair. My mom was a teacher, so obviously I was a tattletale. I really wasn’t, I was just a talkative child and would just say things without thinking they would get people in trouble… My mom would ask me how my day went and what I did, and I would tell her. I didn’t think about leaving out things for the benefit of other people. I remember one time when my mom asked me what I did that day and I told her I had a horrible day because I knew that this older girl Christie had stolen the stickers and money from the teachers desk, but was afraid to tell anyone because Christie would beat me up. I didn’t expect my Mom to go and tell my teacher what I had told her. It didn’t dawn on me until years later that she had done it, it took a conversation with Jen in high school reminiscing about our elementary school days to figure that out. I thought the girl had confessed on her own or that someone else had tattled. Jen’s mom was a teacher too, so we had similar experiences in that area.
Knowing my status on the totem pole makes this story a little more understandable. My rant about society and climbing over people shines true here too. Because Allen and I were both redheads… the other kids in our class thought it would be funny to “joke” with us about being meant for each other. I didn’t like Allen to begin with because, as I noted before, he wasn’t the nicest of kids. It might have also been in retaliation for what the kids were saying as well, trying to prove to them that he didn’t like me. One sunny day out on the “Big Playground”, a group of us were playing some game, which Allen was also playing, when Allen suddenly declared “I can’t go on! My battery’s run down!” Which up finishing he pretended to fall to the ground exhausted. Being that his last name was McCharge… we all thought this was hysterical. We started running around and yelling the same thing and falling to the ground. He at first chased after us, but then he fell himself, this time accidently and started crying. We all thought it was part of the show and we all threw ourselves down again and pretended to cry with him. At some point during this episode, I realized that he was really crying. In shame or because he had actually hurt himself, I’ll never know. I wish I could say that I had the courage during this epiphany to stand up and put it all to an end, but I didn’t. I stayed down on the ground and pretended that I was still having fun with the rest of the group, praying that it would end soon. Thankfully the bell rang and I got up and ran to line up so we could go inside. I don’t remember anything but that. I don’t know if he was picked up by the teacher and taken to the nurses office or if he got up and ran for the line as well. I do know that my Mom asked me about it that evening and I remember trying to brush it off as us all having fun… I also remember that Allen didn’t come back to our class after that day. Maybe he was moved to another classroom or maybe to another school. In those days, your world view was pretty limited to the actual class you were in. All I know is that Allen McCharge disappeared from my life and that I was left with this nagging feeling that I was part of the blame for that disappearance.
I often reach back to that moment in my life when I feel like some type of injustice is being done. It helps me remember how shameful and guilty I felt for not speaking up. I’m actually pretty passionate about it now. I learned from that and a few other hiccups along my younger life to not care about the majority and their thoughts, but to look inside and go with what I felt was right and just. It’s helped me brush off those times when I was being targeted. In 7th grade, my backpack and books were thrown into the dumpster several times. After the first time, I knew where to find them, and so just fished them out myself without saying a word. Eventually (the 4th time), they got that it didn’t bother me and moved on. I had relentlessly made a place for myself at the “B-list” table only to find that I was doing the same thing after “winning” a spot (told you, I had my lapses) in 6th grade... So I purposely started sitting with the “unpopular” kids. Of course I lost my “spot” in a short time, but I felt better about myself. In 8th grade, I did the same thing when I “won” a spot at the “Popular table” for being a cheerleader. By high school.. the crowds kinda died away. Some people from Jasper might argue with me, but I think that we all kind of mingled together. We still had specific “groups”-ish, but again, we all mingled. I couldn’t say if I was in a particular one or not. I don’t think I was popular or unpopular… I was just there. I knew high school was just a stopping point before college when I could get out on my own…
My point? I was bullied, but I bullied too. I think that everyone has been on both sides of the coin at one point. For those who feel like victims, I want you to look deep down and ask yourself if you aren’t guilty of doing the same thing to someone else at some point in your past. Be truthful with yourself. It sucks. BUT IT DOES GET BETTER. Look to your past and grow from it... Don’t let it control your life now. If you’re going through some bullying right now, know that there is light ahead, you just have to keep going. Don’t let it jade you. I now always try to treat other the way I like to be treated. It has confused some, but I’ve gotten a lot more respect and friends out of it than I have enemies. I owe some of that long learned philosophy to Allen McCharge. Whereever you are, I hope that your life has turned out to be amazing.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Revfest!
Wow!! Yet another great success! The artists were amazing, food was fantastic, music was really top notch! I’ll give you a quick breakdown of my day….
8am: Mom and I get to Rev and grab a bit to eat and a cup of coffee. Darrell is soon to follow with all of the equipment. We packed it all up last night in his truck soooo… we could sleep in a little more actually! Lol
9am: Truck is unloaded and Darrell and I are trying to figure out whose speakers we’re going o use for the main and whose we’re going to use for the monitors. We end up using mine for the monitors because they have more base, but then we had to figure out how THAT was going to work being that our speakers use different cables for the boards, not to mention that his have a built in amp and mine is separate. We ended up using both of our boards, which turned out to be pretty cool.
10am: Darrell goes on for his first full set by himself… and was amazing!! After he finished his set, we played Stumbling Blocks together and then I did a few songs of my own, which was a pretty fun way to start off the day. Christian Michael was on next for a long awaited return to the Atlanta area. He did not disappoint! The InTown Band was our first full band of the day. This trio blew away the audience with their laidback soulful music! Arise the Light was short a member due to a family emergency, so Scott Hall played a solo set with an array of original and cover anthems. At one point, I think he went through the complete 90’s playlist using just 3 chords… It was a lot of fun to sing along! Let Love Live, a duet from our local high school brought out a great crowd. The antics going back and forth between lead singer Loren and his brother off stage was enough to get anyone smiling. The new drummer was very impressive… I look forward to see these two out more often.
3pm: We had a slight nervous breakdown at 3… OK, so I had one… Due to a mix up in scheduling, Julie Gribble thought she was supposed to go on at 4pm instead of 3pm… so she was about 20 minutes late. No worries though, we had a quick break where Dave-O and Christian humored the crowd with beat boxing and improv comedy… OK, so we were pretty excited when Julie showed up… lol Especially when she started singing and playing. I LOVE her music! Brett came on at 4 and wowed the crowd with his different array of musical stylings. I especially loved it when he dedicated a song to Darrell and myself…. Quick story: Last Revfest, Darrell was supposed to come out and play with Brett. He ending up helping someone move a couch from his apartment building (random acts of kindness, love it) and was late to the set. He ended up catching the last part of it and… my eye! Brett actually introduced us after his set and we’ve been together ever since!
5pm: Slight heart attack. Wood Root doesn’t show up at all! (We still haven’t heard from them) Luckily, Darrell and Christian Michael volunteer to help me fill out the hour by playing a few songs each. Darrell actually played lead with both Christian and myself and Christian joined me on vocals.. So we actually had a an impromptu jam on stage. Insidious Interference (thankfully!!) showed up on time and ready to play at 6 for their first live performance together as a band. They really went well above and beyond all expectations! The First Stone, a seasoned band in the area, were up next and had the best transition stage wise we had all day. I really do have to take a moment to say that all the full bands that came out yesterday were fantastic. Very professional, very talented, and really stand up guys. The First Stone really blew me away too. I’m definitely a fan now!
8pm: Phillips Brothers takes the stage…. We probably had one of the best sets we’ve ever played!! It just flowed!! AND this is all from a summer of only 1 gig and very few practices due to health issues that have been rampant in our percussion section! J I love you guys!! We should be getting back into the studio very soon and there’s a possibility that we will be playing out again on the 6th over in Tucker.
9pm: I’m Chinese takes the stage for our last performance of the night…. They WOW-ed the crowd and actually brought in a few people who were just driving by. Just as an FYI: They are available for house parties et all!! They also have a new CD coming out in the next week that they are GIVING away!!*
10pm: Take down and clean up… done in record time! Darrell and I were home with our feet soaking in a bathtub by 11:30… having a nice glass of wine… going over everything that had happened…. Reliving some of the best moments and laughing over the more stressful ones. I want to thank all my family and friends who made it out and hung out with us throughout the day. My mom and sisters with their significants really brightened my day by being there!! Thompsons BBQ (off of Cobb Parkway across from Best Buy) is the most amazing BBQ place ever. They are just… YUM! You have to go and try them out. Thanks to DaVinci’s Pizza for holding it down for the after dark crowd. Nick and all the Rev staff… Thank you so much for hosting this event and putting so much time and effort into its success… it really does mean so much to the community. AND DARRELL!!! Who help out so much and basically ran the board all day Saturday while I was running around. I’m so thankful to have you in my life. I’m so happy that I get to spend the rest of my life with you!
OK people, that’s it for my weekend… I’m off to the daily grind after a few days of the fantasy life that is music…
Peace, Love, and Music!
Kerry
kerry@kerrywentworth.com
*To receive the free I'm Chinese CD, just go to the I'm Chinese Website and sign up for their mailing list.
8am: Mom and I get to Rev and grab a bit to eat and a cup of coffee. Darrell is soon to follow with all of the equipment. We packed it all up last night in his truck soooo… we could sleep in a little more actually! Lol
9am: Truck is unloaded and Darrell and I are trying to figure out whose speakers we’re going o use for the main and whose we’re going to use for the monitors. We end up using mine for the monitors because they have more base, but then we had to figure out how THAT was going to work being that our speakers use different cables for the boards, not to mention that his have a built in amp and mine is separate. We ended up using both of our boards, which turned out to be pretty cool.
10am: Darrell goes on for his first full set by himself… and was amazing!! After he finished his set, we played Stumbling Blocks together and then I did a few songs of my own, which was a pretty fun way to start off the day. Christian Michael was on next for a long awaited return to the Atlanta area. He did not disappoint! The InTown Band was our first full band of the day. This trio blew away the audience with their laidback soulful music! Arise the Light was short a member due to a family emergency, so Scott Hall played a solo set with an array of original and cover anthems. At one point, I think he went through the complete 90’s playlist using just 3 chords… It was a lot of fun to sing along! Let Love Live, a duet from our local high school brought out a great crowd. The antics going back and forth between lead singer Loren and his brother off stage was enough to get anyone smiling. The new drummer was very impressive… I look forward to see these two out more often.
3pm: We had a slight nervous breakdown at 3… OK, so I had one… Due to a mix up in scheduling, Julie Gribble thought she was supposed to go on at 4pm instead of 3pm… so she was about 20 minutes late. No worries though, we had a quick break where Dave-O and Christian humored the crowd with beat boxing and improv comedy… OK, so we were pretty excited when Julie showed up… lol Especially when she started singing and playing. I LOVE her music! Brett came on at 4 and wowed the crowd with his different array of musical stylings. I especially loved it when he dedicated a song to Darrell and myself…. Quick story: Last Revfest, Darrell was supposed to come out and play with Brett. He ending up helping someone move a couch from his apartment building (random acts of kindness, love it) and was late to the set. He ended up catching the last part of it and… my eye! Brett actually introduced us after his set and we’ve been together ever since!
5pm: Slight heart attack. Wood Root doesn’t show up at all! (We still haven’t heard from them) Luckily, Darrell and Christian Michael volunteer to help me fill out the hour by playing a few songs each. Darrell actually played lead with both Christian and myself and Christian joined me on vocals.. So we actually had a an impromptu jam on stage. Insidious Interference (thankfully!!) showed up on time and ready to play at 6 for their first live performance together as a band. They really went well above and beyond all expectations! The First Stone, a seasoned band in the area, were up next and had the best transition stage wise we had all day. I really do have to take a moment to say that all the full bands that came out yesterday were fantastic. Very professional, very talented, and really stand up guys. The First Stone really blew me away too. I’m definitely a fan now!
8pm: Phillips Brothers takes the stage…. We probably had one of the best sets we’ve ever played!! It just flowed!! AND this is all from a summer of only 1 gig and very few practices due to health issues that have been rampant in our percussion section! J I love you guys!! We should be getting back into the studio very soon and there’s a possibility that we will be playing out again on the 6th over in Tucker.
9pm: I’m Chinese takes the stage for our last performance of the night…. They WOW-ed the crowd and actually brought in a few people who were just driving by. Just as an FYI: They are available for house parties et all!! They also have a new CD coming out in the next week that they are GIVING away!!*
10pm: Take down and clean up… done in record time! Darrell and I were home with our feet soaking in a bathtub by 11:30… having a nice glass of wine… going over everything that had happened…. Reliving some of the best moments and laughing over the more stressful ones. I want to thank all my family and friends who made it out and hung out with us throughout the day. My mom and sisters with their significants really brightened my day by being there!! Thompsons BBQ (off of Cobb Parkway across from Best Buy) is the most amazing BBQ place ever. They are just… YUM! You have to go and try them out. Thanks to DaVinci’s Pizza for holding it down for the after dark crowd. Nick and all the Rev staff… Thank you so much for hosting this event and putting so much time and effort into its success… it really does mean so much to the community. AND DARRELL!!! Who help out so much and basically ran the board all day Saturday while I was running around. I’m so thankful to have you in my life. I’m so happy that I get to spend the rest of my life with you!
OK people, that’s it for my weekend… I’m off to the daily grind after a few days of the fantasy life that is music…
Peace, Love, and Music!
Kerry
kerry@kerrywentworth.com
*To receive the free I'm Chinese CD, just go to the I'm Chinese Website and sign up for their mailing list.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Bride-like Rock Star!!
So I’ve been doing this whole initial planning for the wedding thing for the past few weeks… Granted, (we set a date!!!) it’s not for another full year, but planning is fully under way. I think with all the type A personalities in my family… along with me and my own type A-ish-ness, this thing will be completely planned out by the end of the month and we’ll just have to wait a year to see anything come of it! Seriously folks… if I was a super hero, I’d be Type-A Girl! Because, let’s face it, I’m not so much on my day to day, but when important things come up, I can’t help myself. You should see the excel spread sheets I make out sometimes, the diagrams, notebooks full of check lists, etc etc etc. I literally have to step back and stop so I don’t get too obsessive! I really work on being a laid back person. :D
The thing that has me on here this morning though is a little off subject of music I realize, but as a musician and as a woman in general, I have to deal with A LOT. It’s image. It’s wearing the right Rock Star stuff on stage… whether to go with the black sequin blouse with some skinny jeans or some comfy cargo pants with a faded band t-shirt. One could say ”Yea! I look good, professional, and my music sounds even better!” and the other could be saying “I put more thought into my music than how I look, so OBVIOUSLY I rock!” Depending on which venue or even (I’ve found) what type of musician you’re dealing with, each person has good arguments on what they do and do not wear on stage. As a woman, it’s a little trickier because well, let’s face it people, women in the music industry are expected to look good. I battle with my weight a lot and it’s funny that when I’ve put on a few extra pounds, how less likely I am to get a venue than when I’m down to the “correct size”. Unfortunately, it’s the same as when dealing with other musicians too, especially ones that have never heard me play. Well, it’s that way just being a girl too, let’s not kid ourselves here.
So the reason I’m bringing it up today? I’ve been on several “bride” sites in the last few weeks and there are seriously lopsided messages out there. A good thing (I guess) that I’ve seen added to a lot of the sites are sections for “plus sizes”, but in the back of my head, I REALLY don’t want to be the one ordering from that section. There is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING wrong with ordering from that section either! The funny thing is that on one site I was on yesterday, plus sizes started at size 12. Yes, ladies and gentlemen…. Size 12! The AVERAGE size of a woman in America is a size 14!!! I looked into it more and found that the “ideal” size for a woman on most of these sites is a size 8. That’s a 5’7 woman at around 100 pounds, for anyone who wanted to know the “average model” size. I have read over the “bride blogs” and the MAJORITY of them are obsessive about getting off weight for their wedding… to look like the models in their “perfect wedding dress”. I was reading about this one lady… who was ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL even before she lost the weight… complaining because she had plateaued at the loss of 50 pounds and trying desperately to get that last 15 pounds off before her last fitting… were she wanted to announce that it had been taken down to a SIZE 6. Instead of the supportive feedback I was expecting about how gorgeous she was and how wonderful she already looked in the dress (really, it was breath-taking), there was advise on how to lose that last 15 pounds. Most of the comments were about how they were trying to do the same thing and little “shortcuts” they were taking to shed the pounds… they were NOT HEALTHY TIPS! The “support” was more along the lines of how wonderful she would feel once she took off those last pounds and how beautiful and triumphant she’d feel on her wedding day for fitting into a size 6. I wanted to throw up. I wanted to take every single one of these girls aside and slap them. Surprisingly enough, several other sites spouted the same thing… most of the sites having “getting in shape” blog sections where women were giving the same type of advice.
I have to confess though… I’m guilty of the same exact thing (ish). I am cringing at the thought of trying on dresses right now. HOWEVER, I’ve been trying to do the “healthy lifestyle” thing. I’m not on a diet, so I’ve been told, I’m doing a “lifestyle change”… where I have to keep up with what I’m eating, and how long I’m exercising every day. Supposedly, the keeping up part is only temporary because once I become a healthy adult, I won’t need to keep up with it, it will come naturally…. But it’s rough going so far. It’s part of my work though. It’s a program that, if I complete, will take off an extra $20 a month on my health insurance. I will say that I feel healthier since starting the program… and fitting into a smaller size pair of pants this morning felt amazing… but I wonder if I’m feeding into the frenzy that I’ve been so harsh on earlier in this blog. I will say though that I’m supporting the healthy human, not the media portrayal of the “model person”. It’s a fine line to walk though.
I admit, I sometimes cringe when I go on stage… when I’m supposed to go for promo pics or record a video of a performance to post on-line. I catch myself over-analyzing how I look instead of listening to how I sound or how having new pictures out will help with marketing my music. Has society gotten the best of me??? I have to work hard not to focus on it… and again, going back to Type A Girl!, not obsessing with the particulars. It’s why I shy away from calorie counting and analyzing everything going in and on my body. I’m hoping that the nutritionist that I’m seeing right now is correct and that “healthy living” with my body will come naturally at some point.
I want to make this point though: I aspire to be that woman that others look up to that has a healthy outlook on life, in mind and spirit, not just the body. I want to show people that I’m happy with being ME, not matter what size pants I put on in the morning. I want to share my talent, and through my talent, the outlook that life is wonderful and amazing. It’s an internal struggle that I think everyone has to deal with… a choice we have to make every single moment of the day… for every thought and action we take… for every word that comes out of our mouths… we do make the difference every day in people’s lives around us, whether we want to or not. I encourage people to embrace the fact that their actions and words affect other people. I want you to realize that just a smile can change someone’s day, just like a frown can. I want you to realize that when you complain about your weight in front of someone, a someone who may not have the self esteem to realize that they are beautiful just the way they are, it can affect their own outlook on their body. Be positive people! I guarantee that your outlook on life will change for the better when you take that extra effort to be thankful for what’s been given to you. I’ll leave you with this quote, along with the article it came from that inspired me to include it, which I hope you all take the time to read.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant?” Who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us: it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, We unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others.”
~Nelson Mandeka (www.fullandfabulous.org, Full in Bloom)
The thing that has me on here this morning though is a little off subject of music I realize, but as a musician and as a woman in general, I have to deal with A LOT. It’s image. It’s wearing the right Rock Star stuff on stage… whether to go with the black sequin blouse with some skinny jeans or some comfy cargo pants with a faded band t-shirt. One could say ”Yea! I look good, professional, and my music sounds even better!” and the other could be saying “I put more thought into my music than how I look, so OBVIOUSLY I rock!” Depending on which venue or even (I’ve found) what type of musician you’re dealing with, each person has good arguments on what they do and do not wear on stage. As a woman, it’s a little trickier because well, let’s face it people, women in the music industry are expected to look good. I battle with my weight a lot and it’s funny that when I’ve put on a few extra pounds, how less likely I am to get a venue than when I’m down to the “correct size”. Unfortunately, it’s the same as when dealing with other musicians too, especially ones that have never heard me play. Well, it’s that way just being a girl too, let’s not kid ourselves here.
So the reason I’m bringing it up today? I’ve been on several “bride” sites in the last few weeks and there are seriously lopsided messages out there. A good thing (I guess) that I’ve seen added to a lot of the sites are sections for “plus sizes”, but in the back of my head, I REALLY don’t want to be the one ordering from that section. There is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING wrong with ordering from that section either! The funny thing is that on one site I was on yesterday, plus sizes started at size 12. Yes, ladies and gentlemen…. Size 12! The AVERAGE size of a woman in America is a size 14!!! I looked into it more and found that the “ideal” size for a woman on most of these sites is a size 8. That’s a 5’7 woman at around 100 pounds, for anyone who wanted to know the “average model” size. I have read over the “bride blogs” and the MAJORITY of them are obsessive about getting off weight for their wedding… to look like the models in their “perfect wedding dress”. I was reading about this one lady… who was ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL even before she lost the weight… complaining because she had plateaued at the loss of 50 pounds and trying desperately to get that last 15 pounds off before her last fitting… were she wanted to announce that it had been taken down to a SIZE 6. Instead of the supportive feedback I was expecting about how gorgeous she was and how wonderful she already looked in the dress (really, it was breath-taking), there was advise on how to lose that last 15 pounds. Most of the comments were about how they were trying to do the same thing and little “shortcuts” they were taking to shed the pounds… they were NOT HEALTHY TIPS! The “support” was more along the lines of how wonderful she would feel once she took off those last pounds and how beautiful and triumphant she’d feel on her wedding day for fitting into a size 6. I wanted to throw up. I wanted to take every single one of these girls aside and slap them. Surprisingly enough, several other sites spouted the same thing… most of the sites having “getting in shape” blog sections where women were giving the same type of advice.
I have to confess though… I’m guilty of the same exact thing (ish). I am cringing at the thought of trying on dresses right now. HOWEVER, I’ve been trying to do the “healthy lifestyle” thing. I’m not on a diet, so I’ve been told, I’m doing a “lifestyle change”… where I have to keep up with what I’m eating, and how long I’m exercising every day. Supposedly, the keeping up part is only temporary because once I become a healthy adult, I won’t need to keep up with it, it will come naturally…. But it’s rough going so far. It’s part of my work though. It’s a program that, if I complete, will take off an extra $20 a month on my health insurance. I will say that I feel healthier since starting the program… and fitting into a smaller size pair of pants this morning felt amazing… but I wonder if I’m feeding into the frenzy that I’ve been so harsh on earlier in this blog. I will say though that I’m supporting the healthy human, not the media portrayal of the “model person”. It’s a fine line to walk though.
I admit, I sometimes cringe when I go on stage… when I’m supposed to go for promo pics or record a video of a performance to post on-line. I catch myself over-analyzing how I look instead of listening to how I sound or how having new pictures out will help with marketing my music. Has society gotten the best of me??? I have to work hard not to focus on it… and again, going back to Type A Girl!, not obsessing with the particulars. It’s why I shy away from calorie counting and analyzing everything going in and on my body. I’m hoping that the nutritionist that I’m seeing right now is correct and that “healthy living” with my body will come naturally at some point.
I want to make this point though: I aspire to be that woman that others look up to that has a healthy outlook on life, in mind and spirit, not just the body. I want to show people that I’m happy with being ME, not matter what size pants I put on in the morning. I want to share my talent, and through my talent, the outlook that life is wonderful and amazing. It’s an internal struggle that I think everyone has to deal with… a choice we have to make every single moment of the day… for every thought and action we take… for every word that comes out of our mouths… we do make the difference every day in people’s lives around us, whether we want to or not. I encourage people to embrace the fact that their actions and words affect other people. I want you to realize that just a smile can change someone’s day, just like a frown can. I want you to realize that when you complain about your weight in front of someone, a someone who may not have the self esteem to realize that they are beautiful just the way they are, it can affect their own outlook on their body. Be positive people! I guarantee that your outlook on life will change for the better when you take that extra effort to be thankful for what’s been given to you. I’ll leave you with this quote, along with the article it came from that inspired me to include it, which I hope you all take the time to read.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant?” Who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us: it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, We unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others.”
~Nelson Mandeka (www.fullandfabulous.org, Full in Bloom)
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
There's Good Reason for My Absence...
Blog blog blog… Yep… I’ve just gotten out of the habit… and I’ve been SO busy! It’s all good though because sometimes, like this, I actually have time to write one!! So projects…
Mike and I are still wowing the crowds with our acoustic duo cover band Minutes to Live. We’re playing at the Roswell’s Riverside Farmers Market September 25 and then at the Land of 1000 Hills Coffee in Roswell on October 22.
We’re working on getting a few other gigs. I keep my Twitter account pretty well up to date as far as when and where I’m playing, so keep checking back. Still playing with the Phillips Brothers. We will be performing on October 1st at Rev, 8pm sharp, hope to see some of you out!! We also have a spot in the upcoming Revfest October 9th. I’ll also be playing a few with Darrell Leven to open up that morning… so stop on by!!
Just an FYI, this is the same Darrell Leven that I’ve fallen totally and completely in love with and will be marrying sometime next Spring or Fall. J So on top of everything else musically, I’m still working full time and starting to plan a wedding. Yup. I really do love my life right now though!! It’s very exciting! I do have quite a few small poems I’m going to try posting in the next few days… no worries people, not all of them are about how gaga I am over my man… but I can’t promise that my happiness hasn’t sneaked its way into verse… lol I really can’t help it!! I wear my heart on paper!!
Mike and I are still wowing the crowds with our acoustic duo cover band Minutes to Live. We’re playing at the Roswell’s Riverside Farmers Market September 25 and then at the Land of 1000 Hills Coffee in Roswell on October 22.
We’re working on getting a few other gigs. I keep my Twitter account pretty well up to date as far as when and where I’m playing, so keep checking back. Still playing with the Phillips Brothers. We will be performing on October 1st at Rev, 8pm sharp, hope to see some of you out!! We also have a spot in the upcoming Revfest October 9th. I’ll also be playing a few with Darrell Leven to open up that morning… so stop on by!!
Just an FYI, this is the same Darrell Leven that I’ve fallen totally and completely in love with and will be marrying sometime next Spring or Fall. J So on top of everything else musically, I’m still working full time and starting to plan a wedding. Yup. I really do love my life right now though!! It’s very exciting! I do have quite a few small poems I’m going to try posting in the next few days… no worries people, not all of them are about how gaga I am over my man… but I can’t promise that my happiness hasn’t sneaked its way into verse… lol I really can’t help it!! I wear my heart on paper!!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Minutes to Live Featured on Chef Thomas Minchella's Blog!
Minutes to Live (one of my band projects) was recently featured as part of a blog post about the Sandy Springs Farmers Market.
http://cheftomminchella.blogspot.com/2010/05/sandy-springs-farmers-market.html
Chef Thomas Minchella is the Executive Chef at McKendrick's Steakhouse in Atlanta.
Isn't that cool? :)
Kerry
kerry@kerrywentworth.com
http://www.kerrywentworth.com
http://cheftomminchella.blogspot.com/2010/05/sandy-springs-farmers-market.html
Chef Thomas Minchella is the Executive Chef at McKendrick's Steakhouse in Atlanta.
Isn't that cool? :)
Kerry
kerry@kerrywentworth.com
http://www.kerrywentworth.com
New Website Look!
As of this morning, I have launched my new website look!
Stop by, let me know what you think!
More improvements to come.
http://www.kerrywentworth.com
Stop by, let me know what you think!
More improvements to come.
http://www.kerrywentworth.com
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Cinco de Mayo!! :)
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Cinco de Mayo Celebration
Pure Enchilada
8pm
252 West Pike Street, Lawrenceville, GA 30046-4867
No Cover
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Ain't Nuthin' I Can't Handle By Myself
Just an observation: So I fell this morning… right out in the parking lot. I got up, dusted myself off, looked around to make sure no one else had shared my embarrassing lack of gravity, and kept walking. I waited until I was sure I was alone before I checked for damage. I, of course, expected the worst but not really. You know the thoughts of blood gushing down your leg and how exactly you could use it to go home early, but in reality, you think it probably didn’t even bruise… well, it was more in the middle. A straight up, old fashion skinned knee.
Had this been 20 to 25 years earlier in life, I probably would have sat down and cried. I was actually pretty tempted… especially when I dutifully cleaned it with hand sanitizer. I will fight showing it off to my co-workers for a little conversation and pity. I already had my 15 minutes this month with the huge bruises I accumulated on my hands and arms from moving things out of unforgiving and surprisingly sturdy door frames.
A skinned knee would put me in some type of accident prone category that I would have to fight to get out of to show that I am a grown up and not a whinny little child who can’t handle anything.
The thing is though that we put our bodies through a lot. Day to day, we scratch, bump, fall on, trip over, bang, cut, and just hurt ourselves in general. I’m pretty sure that I do it a lot more now than when I was a kid, except now I really don’t have the liberty to scream and throw a fit every time I hurt myself. I think we’d be permanently mute if that were the case. Plus, we need to save it up for when we actually hurt ourselves. Think of The Boy Who Cried Wolf. If we cry out every time something little comes up, when something big actually happens, no one will pay any attention to us… and really people, what is the use of something big happening to us if we don’t get attention? ;)
So man up people. While a skinned knee might make for an interesting time for shaving this week, ain’t nuthin’ I can’t handle by myself.
Kerry
kerry@kerrywentworth.com
www.kerrywentworth.com
Had this been 20 to 25 years earlier in life, I probably would have sat down and cried. I was actually pretty tempted… especially when I dutifully cleaned it with hand sanitizer. I will fight showing it off to my co-workers for a little conversation and pity. I already had my 15 minutes this month with the huge bruises I accumulated on my hands and arms from moving things out of unforgiving and surprisingly sturdy door frames.
A skinned knee would put me in some type of accident prone category that I would have to fight to get out of to show that I am a grown up and not a whinny little child who can’t handle anything.
The thing is though that we put our bodies through a lot. Day to day, we scratch, bump, fall on, trip over, bang, cut, and just hurt ourselves in general. I’m pretty sure that I do it a lot more now than when I was a kid, except now I really don’t have the liberty to scream and throw a fit every time I hurt myself. I think we’d be permanently mute if that were the case. Plus, we need to save it up for when we actually hurt ourselves. Think of The Boy Who Cried Wolf. If we cry out every time something little comes up, when something big actually happens, no one will pay any attention to us… and really people, what is the use of something big happening to us if we don’t get attention? ;)
So man up people. While a skinned knee might make for an interesting time for shaving this week, ain’t nuthin’ I can’t handle by myself.
Kerry
kerry@kerrywentworth.com
www.kerrywentworth.com
Friday, March 12, 2010
Rosebud's is a Success
Great night at Rosebuds last night!! Thanks to everyone who came out!! We did our official 311 tribute, Amber, about halfway through the set for 311 day and the crowd loved it! We also played a few good Dead songs for Rob, the owner. For anyone who isn’t familiar with Rosebuds, the place is teaming with Dead Heads. In fact, Rosebuds is named for Garcia’s famed guitar, his third custom guitar designed by Doug Irwin. :) On a fantastic note, Jeff, the guy who usually books the music there, actually heard us last night and said he’d like us to play a little more often. So look out for more shows at Rosebuds!
Other than that… life in general seems to be going pretty darn good. Todd and I are slowly putting the house together. We have about a million little projects we’ve lined up.. especially concerning the amazing yard we have to play with! First things first.. we need to get the gutters cleaned out and the drains re-directed to where they don’t flood the yard every time it rains (like it’s doing here all weekend). Abi and Gyro are becoming… errr… tolerant of each other. They can be in the same room now without furring out.. small steps…. Lol
Again, as I said before, keep April 17th and May 22 open for festivals! I’ll writ again soon… Until then… Love and Music!
Kerry
kerry@kerrywentworth.com
www.kerrywentworth.com
Other than that… life in general seems to be going pretty darn good. Todd and I are slowly putting the house together. We have about a million little projects we’ve lined up.. especially concerning the amazing yard we have to play with! First things first.. we need to get the gutters cleaned out and the drains re-directed to where they don’t flood the yard every time it rains (like it’s doing here all weekend). Abi and Gyro are becoming… errr… tolerant of each other. They can be in the same room now without furring out.. small steps…. Lol
Again, as I said before, keep April 17th and May 22 open for festivals! I’ll writ again soon… Until then… Love and Music!
Kerry
kerry@kerrywentworth.com
www.kerrywentworth.com
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Here to Make Music!
I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted, but I’ve been very busy with work and life in general! First of all, we had a program move at work, so I’ve had to put music on the back burner for the past few months to take care of training. What can I say… I have to take care of the financial backing of my passion sometimes! I’ve also moved this past week. The house is amazing. It’s kind of like an Alice in Wonderland house. We keep finding all these interesting things about the house. Todd and I will be having a housewarming/birthday party in the next month. As some of you know, both of our birthdays are in April, so we thought it would be fun to have a joint celebration! We’ll keep everyone updated concerning the date. :D
As far as music goes, Mike and I are playing at Rosebuds in the Highlands this Thursday at 8pm. I hope to see some of you out there. A few other dates to consider.. April 15th is Spring Revfest. Nick and I finally hammered out the musicians lineup. I’ll be playing with Phillips Brothers… who I’ve actually been playing with a lot lately. We’re playing all originals; a mix between Mikey’s stuff and mine. We will hopefully be playing out at different venues soon, but as for now, you can catch us most Wednesdays at Rev’s open mic on Wednesdays. Talking about which, we’ve really started booming at open mic! It’s to the point where all 12 spots are filled by 7:30. We’re debating on extending the time from 7pm-10pm. Thoughts?
Also keep in mind AIF’s interfaith festival is right around the corner. The festival is set to be on May 22, but the exact location is still TBD. Fundraising for the event is in full swing and if you'd like to contribute, you can either email AIF at info@americanislamicfellowship.com or visit the AIF website at www.americanislamicfellowship.com to find out how to donate. As you most of you know, AIF is a non-profit, so any help will keep the festival growing!
That’s about it in my world. I’ll have a little more time to post now, so check back soon!
Kerry
kerry@kerrywentworth.com
www.kerrywentworth.com
As far as music goes, Mike and I are playing at Rosebuds in the Highlands this Thursday at 8pm. I hope to see some of you out there. A few other dates to consider.. April 15th is Spring Revfest. Nick and I finally hammered out the musicians lineup. I’ll be playing with Phillips Brothers… who I’ve actually been playing with a lot lately. We’re playing all originals; a mix between Mikey’s stuff and mine. We will hopefully be playing out at different venues soon, but as for now, you can catch us most Wednesdays at Rev’s open mic on Wednesdays. Talking about which, we’ve really started booming at open mic! It’s to the point where all 12 spots are filled by 7:30. We’re debating on extending the time from 7pm-10pm. Thoughts?
Also keep in mind AIF’s interfaith festival is right around the corner. The festival is set to be on May 22, but the exact location is still TBD. Fundraising for the event is in full swing and if you'd like to contribute, you can either email AIF at info@americanislamicfellowship.com or visit the AIF website at www.americanislamicfellowship.com to find out how to donate. As you most of you know, AIF is a non-profit, so any help will keep the festival growing!
That’s about it in my world. I’ll have a little more time to post now, so check back soon!
Kerry
kerry@kerrywentworth.com
www.kerrywentworth.com
Monday, March 8, 2010
Rosebud's on March 11!
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Rosebud's
8pm - 11pm
1397 North Highland Avenue, Atlanta, GA 30306
No Cover - Please enjoy some tasty food and beverages from Rosebud's
Rosebud's
8pm - 11pm
1397 North Highland Avenue, Atlanta, GA 30306
No Cover - Please enjoy some tasty food and beverages from Rosebud's
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